beginning. The others simply ausnutzen [exploit] one. And at my age I
can't stand the strain of taking responsibility for those who don't think
it worth defending. Yes, this age question is a real one now... 67
next week.
My potency has gone. And my work is mainly repetitive now. I fancy
my high day is over, Reich. The stimulation I had looked forward to at
Orgonon and its loss has affected me more deeply than I yet realise.
More than ever I feel ALONE. I haven't your optimism about humanity,
and today when I read that the people of East Berlin have been warned
that if they don't vote in the elections a cross will be put against their
names as U.S.A. military sympathisers, I wonder how many poor devils
will have the courage to not vote and face a concentration camp.
Perhaps if I sit down to write a new book I'll feel better, but again I
feel that I have nothing new to say.
Well, I end this not very cheerful letter.
P.S. I wish I knew if it is safe to use the small box and funnel on my
nose and throat. It seems to be a chronic catarrh, which so far sitting in
the accu doesn't touch.Orgonon
Rangeley , Maine
My dear Neill:
- I •
October 19, 1950I have yours of October 14th. I hope you realize now that the
difficulties in entering the U.S. are not concerning you personally at all,
but are entailed in the rational and justified fear of the innumerable spies
that used to enter the U.S. from everywhere without any control. I had
fear of communism already in Europe for the same reasons that the fear
besets you in regard to your school, and besets every single free man
over here. I am sure it will pass over soon and that I shall see you some
time during 195 1.
We cannot possibly keep a monopoly on the orgone energy. It belongs
to everyone. It is not true that the medical profession rejects us. We
have numerous friends among American and European physicians and
medical men, also those who use the accumulator in their medical
offices.