346 A Programmer’s Guide to the Mind
Perceiver confidence tells us that we have one and only one physical
body and that this body can only be in one place at a time. This is the
Perceiver glue which holds together the me of my physical body. But, as
with any Perceiver information, I suggest that this fact takes time to grow.
Strong emotional experiences which occur too early in life can prevent
Perceiver confidence from learning this fact. The result is a self-image in
which the person literally 'knows' that me consists of different people with
different bodies living within the same mind—the emotion associated with
blocking off the painful event has mesmerized the Perceiver observer into
'believing' this 'fact.' Therefore, if the abuse reoccurs, then the child with
multiple personalities will literally 'know' that the experience is happening
to another body, despite the evidence provided by his senses.
In a normal person, sexual encounters are postponed until the me of the
physical body has enough structural resilience to handle the accompanying
emotional identification without falling apart. Then, when the act of sex
fills the me of Mercy identification with emotional experiences, the me of
the physical body will stay in one piece. This principle could be illustrated,
perhaps, by the person who gets drunk. Mentally speaking, he is no longer
integrated: Me has become scattered. On the other hand, the body of the
drunk still remains in one piece and acts as a „container‟ for his mental
„jelly‟ until it has a chance to re-form again into the „solid‟ of a rational
thinking person.
Transforming the me of identification requires a proper foundation.
Perceiver confidence must be sufficient to handle Mercy feelings.
Without this mental structure, identity crumbles.
The end is regression and pain, rather than growth and happiness.Now let us turn to the topic of Mercy schizophrenia. Is this also a
situation in which the me of the physical body lags behind the me of
Mercy identification? In answer to this, I suggest that all cases of
schizophrenia are characterized by two major symptoms: First, there is an
abundance of wishful thinking and fantasizing. The schizophrenic may feel
that he has special powers, he may be repulsed by specific colors or objects,
fear certain individuals, dwell upon incidents in the past, or even retreat
into his own internal world. In all cases, he is actively using Mercy
identification either to avoid or in contrast to hold on to certain emotional
experiences. In other words, the me of Mercy identification is overactive.
Second, schizophrenia is always accompanied by a dearth of rational
logic and common sense. The imaginative ideas are not consistent and do
not match external reality, yet no amount of logical reasoning will
convince the schizophrenic person to abandon his 'beliefs.' This suggests
that the me of the physical body is definitely underactive.
In a sense, our research on the mind has turned both my brother and me
into schizophrenics. Using rational thinking, we have moved forward with