Chapter^8

8 A Mighty Entrance........................................................

ow could it be? I had just given my life to the Lord,

Hand I was struggling to live the Christian life.

When I think about what is happening to me now, it
sounds impossible. In February 1972 after my "born again"
experience, I knew my heart had been cleansed, but the
difficulties I faced seemed insurmountable. There were
conflicts at home, indecision about my future, and a self-
image as low as the floor beneath my feet.
Oh, how I wrestled with my life! It was even difficult at
times to give my total love to the Lord. I had so many
urgent questions. Then two weeks later I was filled with the
Spirit. I expected heaven on earth from that moment on.
But it didn't happen. My day-to-day struggles continued.
Certainly there were great moments of joy and
exhilaration. And I would not have traded my spiritual
experiences for all the oil in Saudi Arabia. But deep inside
there was a gnawing question that haunted me month after
month. "Is that all there is?" I wondered. The question
would not go away. "Doesn't the Lord have something
more for me?"
And then, in the middle of a cold December night
nearly two years after I met Christ, it happened. As I lay on
my bed in Toronto, the Holy Spirit made a mighty entrance
into my room. It felt like a jolt of electricity and a blanket