Self-Realization and Other Awakenings

more and more from you. The health care system is
rigged to extract the most money from you.
Fox News and MSNBC are both mouthpieces for a
partial perspective. No one speaks to you honestly,
they lie a little each word they say so as not to drive
you away. Sometimes they smile and you can feel
their hatred.
Strange energies awakening in you cause changes
in your sleeping patterns, and you can’t sleep or you
sleep too long. You do not talk to the kids anymore
because you are immersed in indecision about
everything. You just want to be alone, or you just
want to be with someone else or be somewhere else.
All your self-told lies disappear and you are
exposed to your own truth more and more, and that
which is not part of your truth falls away.
Things no longer unfold as they did before, but
unfold in a new and frightening way as your entire past
is seen as a lie and yet you still do not see your own
truth clearly.
In other words, your daily life goes from a boring
certainty, to an insecure emptiness, yet an incredible
and frightening aliveness.
Intense practice or intense involvement with a free
teacher creates situations with a lot of out of control