Therefore, the Disciple never doubts the Teaching and the Flame. He doubts the world. Watch the
clouds. Look at the trees. Listen to the wind. Doubt if it is really what you see and hear or if there
is more. Something hidden. Something unspoken. Nor clouds are clouds. Nor is the wind a wind.
All of these are all a mixture and variations of the Five Proto-Elements. We are not talking here
about the human doubt of the mind. We are talking about the first step towards distinguishing the
world.
FIND YOUR WAY OUT OF THE WORLD
What man imperceptibly makes is to look for his own center. That's what his life revolves around.
For young people, everything revolves around education, school, university. Time for studying,
grades, friends, classmates, teachers. His whole life is there. Then he starts working and everything
revolves around work - which boss is good, which is bad, who makes more money. Then comes
the spouse, the beloved - everything focuses on the partner and everything else fades. It is the turn
of the family and the children - the person cannot afford this or that, because he has to think for
the family, to take care of the children. Then, as he gets older, the center shifts to dying - he starts
going to the doctors more often, thinking his last will, a gravesite with a good view, and until then
nothing constructive is done - just killing time with TV and talking to others like him. This is the
normal cycle of human life. At any stage, he often sticks to his object of interest so much that he
forgets about everything else. From here come the deviations or in other words, the loss of the
center - dropping out of school, dismissal from work, abandoned by his spouse, disappointed with
his children... When the person loses the center he hurries to cling to another center, another
occupation to continue to feel significant for himself. Finding a center in this human cycle, takes
man even deeper into the world of people. The Magician is looking for a way out of this vicious
circle. This is done through the final Choice. To choose only the Flame. The man of the World has
many things - career, loved ones, friends, a family, children... The Magician has no one and
nothing in this World - only the Flame and does not want anything else. The Magician does not
pursue a career, has no relatives, no family, no children. He has no obligations in the world. The
Magician has only his Magic. There is only the Flame and that is his whole life - a life of Service.
By choosing the Flame, you must be ready to give up the World completely and without hesitation.
As long as you have the feeling that you can lose something valuable in the World, you will not
be able to reach the Flame. No matter how much you walk towards the Flame, something will
always pull you back. Sometimes the Flame can take away everything earthly from you. Then
begins the true Path of the Adept-Magician.
As long as there is someone staying at the window every night waiting for you to come home and
as long as you have other people's things in you - thoughts, objects, emotions, the World will never
let you go and you will not be able to step on the Crossroads of the Apprentice. In order to step on
the Crossroad, the candidate must get rid of everything unnecessary. There should be no shortages
or redundancies. The balance must be Zero.