Thinking of this, my right hand touched Shiva's hand after
my meditation. What I felt then was the most wonderful
power overcoming me. Shiva's face grew more and more
vibrating. Where was He? Where was I? Where this I and
where this Shiva? All within one space, one room, one
heart, one soul, one time, though still so different. The
Shiva murti broadened, brightened and became so much
more vitally alive in an almost fleshly sense, though all as
pure light and in a purely androgynous form. Such wonders
of vital, new and extraordinary experiencing are touching
my inner heart ever more and I feel my eyes opening up,
widening and broadening from within.
My posture becomes straighter and upright,
straightening from within. And while reading Acharya’s
textbooks I see ever and again a golden light overflowing
the pages, covering the words, and my hands and fingers
engage in different mudras, guiding me to enter a deeper,
more comprehensive awareness. I am completely flooded
by this wonder of Shiva’s grace.
Today while doing extended Shiv puja and murti
darshan, my soul-body grew larger, broader and very much
lighter – losing the stamp of physical age. I felt myself
growing stronger – from within and without, reaching and
extending with a not only far more up-right posture, but
also felt as if this expansion knows no bodily boundaries
this body in this space-time.