band. To her uncomprehending sorrow, Nils declined to let her
salvage Thomas from the family collapse along with the other
jointly owned property at No. , Karlavägen.
She wrote to Göring from that address on December ,
, thanking him for two letters and telegrams from Berlin
and Munich:
Darling! You really need not have any concern for
me. Nils is so nice to me, and no one else is angry with
me. It is so terrible for me without you, my only eter-
nally beloved. I feel more and more how deeply and
warmly and sincerely I love you. I don’t forget you
for a minute. Thomas is my consolation. He is so sweet
and dear and loves me so faithfully and deeply. He
has gotten so big, and he laughs and kisses me every
time he sees me. Today was his last day at school and
he got the highest marks in every subject. He was so
happy, he had two sweet tears in his blue eyes!Her mother-in-law, she continued, “that old witch,” had
phoned Nils two days ago to ask for her address; Nils had said
she was back in his home in Karlavägen, and his mother had
congratulated him and written Carin a cloying letter reproach-
ing her, which evoked from her only a scornful comment, writ-
ten to her distant lover: “Isn’t she a conceited, idiotic old mon-
key???”
You asked me [wrote Carin to Hermann] about writ-
ing from Bayrischzell. Yes, darling, always write me at
Karlavägen. It is after all better to be open about it. I
told Nils the whole truth the first day I was back. I
told him you were with me at Bayrischzell and that
you had rented our house for me. He took it all very
calmly and even said he was glad to know I was happy
and hadn’t been all by myself.