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disbelief took center stage. I think even if God had wanted
to heal me at that time, I would not have accepted it because
I had practically given up. I was not crying out to God any-
more. Tommy did not see any change in me, but deep down
inside, he had planted a new kind of seed down in my heart
without me knowing it. The window was opening; I was just
too blind to see it.
Some time passed, and God in His timing was ready for me
to go to the next phase. God was moving slowly within me, and
I understood why because I was a very slow learner. Kitty intro-
duced me to another man, Todd [Brazee], who believed strongly in
the power of God and His healing desire for each of us. He
did this thing he called “ breath work. ” I thought he was the
biggest scam artist. I met with him for a couple of hours and
told him what I thought of him. Right before I walked out of
his offi ce, he asked me to let him try a session of breath work
on me and then make an assessment.
Todd was able to release painful memories through my
breathing. It was a very simple concept but painful. I couldn ’ t
see the window open, but I could feel the draft of some
extremely needed fresh air. The more time I spent with Todd,
the better I felt. Life, something I had not felt or experienced
in such a long time, was returning. Joy , a three - letter word,
was what I began to cling to and embraced with such force
as to never let it out of my grasp. The smiles and hugs from
my children accelerated my healing, but my marriage had suf-
fered tremendous damage. The battle I was winning on one
front, I was losing on another. This caused a setback, which
landed me in the hospital once again. If that was not bad
enough, while in the hospital, I received a call from my hus-
band telling me that my father had a heart attack and died.
The doctors released me in order for me to fl y home and
attend his funeral.
Upon my return, Todd became quite concerned and
frustrated because the drugs I was prescribed put me in a zom-
bielike state. The breath work could not penetrate through