amazing, miraculous, and extraordinary healing 241
the drugs. I had no thoughts and no feelings. I showed no
emotion because I had none. Todd got me off the meds, and
I began to wake up from the deep sleep the doctors had put
me in. God ’ s healing power was able to fl ow back into the
window, and I was able to take a big, deep breath, a sigh of
relief.
Reg, my husband, decided that it would be best to move
to Florida, to be closer to his parents. Moving was not the
route I wanted to take, but I was not really in a position to
argue and win. My breath work with Todd would end, and
the future would hang in the balance. My support group
and friends that I had made were all going to disappear.
Starting over was something I had done all my life, but with
each one, a little piece of me would come up missing. Just
as before, moving was not positive in the scheme of things.
I felt more alone than I had felt in a long time. I learned the
hospitals fast and spent a lot of time in them. Finally, I met
up with a psychologist, Dr. Marcia Leder, who knew what she
was doing. She was honest, trustworthy, sincere, and tough as
nails on me. I also met up with a pastor of a church, Kernie
Kostrub, who went the distance for me and did not compro-
mise with his belief. Between the two of them and myself, we
rode the most dangerous roller - coaster together, fl uctuating
up and down for years but making progress along the way.
They were both on the same page with me, and I know now
that God had put us together for a reason.
Then in 2003, my husband fi led for a divorce. It turned
my world upside down, but this time God had made some
other plans for me. It came down to him requesting full cus-
tody of the children. I got down on my knees and cried out
to the Lord to take care of my children because I knew a
judge just might take them from me. I prayed that whatever
was God ’ s will, that it would be so. I fi nally asked for mercy.
I surrendered every part of myself. From that moment on,
my life was on a new track that did not include any signs of
illness. It wasn ’ t easy, but God came to really live in my heart