Without Disclosing My True Identity
why we exist or how we should exist. From the moment we come to a consciousness of
our existence, we begin to experience misery, whether from the contrast we feel in
coming forth from a warm womb into a cold world or from the sharp pain of being
smacked into consciousness, we begin to experience opposition.^4 As infants, we look to
others for understanding and guidance, submitting our free will to those who have been
alive longer than we have and should have more experience at finding happiness. Our
innocence and ignorance compels us to submit our free will to others and depend on
their free will instead of our own.
From Napoleon to Hitler^5 to Brigham Young, even dating back to more ancient
times, we have seen the effects caused by the majority when they submit their free will
to even the smallest, weakest, and most unattractive of men. We have become like the
great beasts of the land and the leviathans of the sea^6 that can be trained by a physically
inferior human to submit to their commands, when a swipe of the dumb beast’s tail or
paw could kill its captors. From the accepted superstitions and edicts of ancient priests
and spiritual leaders, we have seen the great devastation that comes from our desire to
submit to their authority and give up our free will to their laws and teachings.
But, throughout all of our history, throughout all of the misery caused by a few
mortals—usually men—to whom we have submitted our free will, what have we learned?
We still submit to authority. We still give honor and praise to others who hold titles and
degrees, those who wear uniforms and articles of clothing that supersede our own sense of
value and cause us to submit to their authority. Whether one dawns a black robe to judge us
by the laws of government, or a white robe and tall hat to judge us by the laws of God, or
even the dark suit, white shirt and tie of an LDS General Authority or Bishop,^7 we have
freely submitted our free will to these men. It is in our nature to do so. It was instilled in us
the moment we were created and began our foundationalization.
We have learned by sad experience that it is the nature and disposition of almost
all men, that as soon as they get a little authority, as they suppose, they immediately
begin to exercise unrighteous dominion over others.^8 In the pursuit to gratify their pride
and their vain ambition, they exercise control, dominion, or compulsion upon our souls.^9
Who are these austere ones to exercise this control, dominion, or compulsion upon us?
Who gave them the right? The answer is obvious—we did. We chose them and we freely
determined to submit to their authority. Throughout our mortal history, we have
learned that they have failed us, as evidenced by the increasing misery, poverty,
inequality, and suffering of the majority upon this earth.
In Stumbling, We Learn the Necessary Lessons to Submit Our Free Will to Christ
Indeed we have stumbled. But in stumbling, we have learned the lessons intended for
us when we were placed upon this earth to experience the many different tests of the use of our
free will. For this purpose, all mortals assigned to this solar system have lived many different
life times in many different cultures, as different races of humans and as different genders.
When left to govern ourselves during these stages of our earth’s history, each of our mortal
experiences impacted our understanding of the frailties of the governments of free-willed
people who, when left to govern themselves, cause themselves to suffer (stumble), thus failing
the tests of their humanity. The memory of each of these mortalities is burned into the “hard
drive” of our spirit, or essence, to be remembered throughout our eternal existence.