P.S. I Still Love You

40 ON THE PHONE A FEW nights later, Peter suddenly says, “You have me, don’t you?” “No!” I haven’t told him I took out John over ...

I can’t fully explain why this game of Assassins is so important to me. I only know that with each passing day I want it more an ...

going to do for spring break in April, summer vacation. I tell him about Daddy’s idea to go to Korea. “I have a funny story abou ...

in her ear, petting her hair tenderly. It all happens in the span of seconds, but it feels like time goes in slow-motion, like I ...

41 PETER AND I ARE SITTING on my front porch; I can hear the TV on in the living room. Kitty’s watching a movie. There is an int ...

Peter starts talking very fast. “Let me explain it. It’s only recently I found out Gen was behind the video. I asked her about i ...

42 PETER AND ME, OUR BREAKUP, it’s all so very high school. By that I mean it’s ephemeral. Even this pain will be fleeting, fini ...

men, so it’s the women who will be in charge anyway.” I’ve been going from apartment to apartment asking people to lend pictures ...

Alicia glares at her. “Will you just let her talk?” “Peter never got over his ex-girlfriend, Genevieve,” I say, sniffling. “She ...

Janette gives me a look like Girl, please. “And who’s going to put away all the tables and chairs? You?” “Well, me, and I’m sure ...

43 SUNDAY NIGHT I CURL MY hair. Curling your hair is an intrinsically hopeful act. I like to curl mine at night and think about ...

“So I want my necklace back,” he says. “Obviously.” My fingers fly to the heart locket hanging from around my neck. I wanted to ...

44 KITTY FLIES INTO MY BEDROOM. I’m at my desk, doing homework. It’s been so long since I sat here and did homework; Peter and I ...

“Kitty, don’t act like you never cry.” “I cry over important things.” “You cried the other night because Daddy wouldn’t let you ...

45 IT’S RAINING AGAIN. I’D HAD the thought that I might take Kitty and Jamie to the park after school, but that’s out now. Inste ...

night after I left.” “Oh. We broke up.” “You broke up,” he repeats, his face blank. That’s when I notice Kitty lurking in the do ...

Laughing, he says, “Like a hawk on its prey.” “Shut up!” Now I’m laughing too. “How do you even remember that?” “Because I was d ...

46 THE NEXT MORNING, KITTY IS dawdling over her peanut butter toast, and from behind his newspaper, Daddy says, “You’re going to ...

“He took me to get donuts.” I bite my lip. “That’s nice. Did he say anything?” “About what?” “I don’t know. Life.” Kitty rolls h ...

Her head pops up, and I push it back down on my shoulder. “Is that what happened with you and Genevieve?” she asks. “Honestly, I ...